The Life Of A Single Mommy

Sometimes, I get these feelings.  I’m not sure where they come from.  Perhaps you could classify them as “wishful thinking”.  Whatever it is that you want to call it, I have one of these feelings now.  This feeling keeps telling me that something good is going to happen to or for me on March 18th and/or March 19th.  I’m not sure what makes these two days so special, but this feeling is so exciting!  I can’t wait for these two days to get here so I can see if my feeling is real and see if it meant anything.

Maybe you can consider this “wishful thinking” to be a leap of faith.  It is stepping out and saying, “Something good is going to happen for me”.  It is my 6th sense of hope.

Now, if these two days come and nothing good happens to me, will I be disappointed?  Well, yes and no.  Yes, because I expected something wonderful and exciting to happen on these two days and if it doesn’t then, sure I’m going to feel a little down about it.  But also, no, because just knowing that God gave me one more day to wake up and live my life, enjoying every minute of being a mother to my beautiful children should be blessing enough, right?  Not all women get the opportunity to have children.  Being a mother is an exhilaring experience and getting to do it not only once but twice is the greatest blessing I have ever experienced in my life.

© 2009 LaDawn Cossey

Trackback URI | Comments RSS