The Life Of A Single Mommy

I’ve always been overweight for primarily most of life.  I lost a bunch of weight when I was a teenager, but after having two children, I gradually put it all back on plus a few pounds to boot.  After having children, every day life becomes so much more time consuming.  A mother tries to make meals go as fast as they can, trying to keep both children happy with the kinds of foods they like best.  Sometimes those foods don’t look so good on a mother’s hips.

These pounds really pack on some punch.  To me, they are a slap in the face.  They hold me back from my full potential.  These pounds don’t show how beautiful I am on the inside, yet to me, they reflect the depression and heartache that I have lived.

It has been over eight years since I gave birth to my daughter, Destiny.  I currently weigh twenty pounds more than I did before I got pregnant with her.  Sad thing to say is, I’ve been dieting for a little over a month now and I’ve lost twenty pounds as well, so before I began this diet I weight forty pounds heavier than the day I found out that I was pregnant for the first time.

Every day, I look at myself in the mirror and I think to myself, “How did I let myself get like this?”.  I hate all the weight that I’ve put on and for years I have let it depress me.  Now, I’m losing myself, losing the weight that has held me back in so many ways.  This weight has made me feel self-conscience about myself and the way I look and losing this weight will give me more confidence in myself to be who I want to be.  Who I am on the inside will finally show itself on the outside.  I want to be beautiful on the inside and the outside.  I’m not saying that I’m not beautiful now, but I want to be a more healthier beautiful.

© 2009 LaDawn Cossey