Jan 01 2009
A Single Mommy New Year
It’s New Years Eve, where do you think a single mommy is? Most, probably out having a good time. Not me, no babysitter means I’m at home. Sometimes the most exciting nights turn out to be the most boring, depressing nights of a single mother’s life. Watch a movie, eat, and go to bed - all before midnight. Nothing worth writing about really.
I hate when I have these nights, the ones that really depress me about being a single mother and not having any family around. It’s those nights that people ask, “What did you do for New Years?” When you answer, “I stayed at home with the baby”, they say, “You really should get out sometime”. Huh? Don’t you think I wish I could do that? That’s what I want more than anything, but my responsibility is to my children so that cancels out what I want.
So, now it’s a New Year. Will it be better than the last one? For a single mommy, no, it isn’t likely. It’s just another year where everything under the sun can go wrong. Pessimistic, yes, I am. I’ve learned that trying to make good things happen for me is out of the question. When I make plans, they always fall apart and I get let down, so why look for good things to happen when I already know they won’t. I will look for all the bad things that will happen in the coming year and maybe I will get surprised with something good happening and if it doesn’t then I won’t be disappointed.
© 2008 LaDawn Cossey
